Whew!

I am still trying to catch my breathe from the past few months. Back in my Los Angeles home base, I am looking forward to what 2014 will bring. I am ambitiously thinking of some new art projects. Funny when you see your artwork spread out in front of you, it begins to make complete sense.

Anyway, here is a film I made in 2006 for an exhibit on dessert fetishes and the excesses of being American. Performance artist Maria Elena Fernandez is captured on a provocative summer day in Crema.

On my 50th birthday in 2001, all my friends and collaborators were asked to dress in their project-with-me clothes. Maria Elena came in with a cardboard cinema frame in front of her face, that only showed her mouth eating an ice cream in a cone. Loved it!

Photograph: Richard Armas

 Through an introduction by a close UCSD friend,  I became part of the Richard Armas’ photography studio clique in San Diego (1973-ish).  Ricky (to everyone) was a very methodical photographer who had at one time been the booking clerk and composite photographer at the San Diego Police Department. Although never revealed formally, connecting the dots that his father (the Sheriff of Downey) had facilitated such an interesting civil servant job for his son, was obvious to his friends. The fact that Ricky was somewhat secretly gay at the Police Department, gave him an interesting insight to the cruelty police perpetrated towards the LGBTQ community. He related these work stories with a matter-of-fact attitude, a loud scripted HA HAAAAAA somewhere in between, followed by a head nod of pity.

Even though he did not look obviously gay or Mexican, he lived an open life with a nonchalant air of always being on the right side of the law.  Speaking middle class Downey, California English, Ricky related culturally as an American, however, he was drawn to all things Mexican, which could be noted in the make-up of most of his friends, his lover and his diet.

Upon making the big move to Los Angeles, because ‘its where the industry and opportunities are!,”  Ricky converted a large commercial space on Hudson and Santa Monica Boulevard into his living and work studio. I followed my pied piper friend to LA too. His space was the first loft style living situation I had seen in person.  He worked weeks on sanding the floors, creating separate living/work spaces, a kitchenette and a full bathroom out of an old storage warehouse with a freight elevator.  Now his old loft lies in small theater district, a colander for the Hollywood overflow. Here is where Ricky created his full time photo studio, along with many LGBTQ entrepreneurs –a sort of Castro Street in Los Angeles, that morphed into West Hollywood, then into WeHo (pun intended).

One thing that tied us as friends was our love of Rhythm and Blues (R&B) music.  Living in LA gives the unique opportunity of attending music showcases in bars, little theaters and public places where musicians are on a descend or ascend.  Totally star-struck, Ricky loved to pass his business card onto R&B musicians after a set, beckoning them to sit for a photo in his studio.  His love of this music and these artists reflected in the work he produced in those years.  Pulling out all his skills and associates to recreate a poorly represented climbing/falling idol for a few pennies, seemed to bring him so much joy.

His “for profit” work consisted mainly of studio fashion product shots, that used models, hair stylists and make-up artists.  From these years of close friendship with Richard, I learned the process of starting a professional photography studio, marketing, networking–which enhanced my knowledge of the other side of photography and film as a job. Eventually, I lost interest in commercial art and sought artistic camaraderie in East Los Angeles. I hungered for art work that had political substance, that spoke to my culture and was spiritual.  In retrospect, I know that I was also affected (at that time) by the overwhelming number of deaths from AIDS in my circle of friends and my inability to cope with such helplessness.   When I left the Richard Armas circle (early 1980s),  I never saw him again.

Ricky Armas’ selfie

Gilberto Torres from Tijuana lived with Ricky for  37 years as his life partner and business representative.  He made the move to Los Angeles and toiled along side with Ricky to make their business work. In the last 30 years together, Gilberto styled Julie Newmar, Carmen Electra, Madeline Stowe, Eric Estrada, Shannon Doherty, Matt Cedeño, Barbara Carrera, Laura Harring and Constance Marie for photographs and magazine covers that were used in Play Girl, Vogue (Mexico), Women’s Wear Daily, Passion Magazine and the Advocate.   Gilberto is to this day an HIV community activist in San Diego and Palm Springs.  Ricky (Richard) Armas died in April 24, 2009.  He was 58.

Take Note

I suppose everyone has to have a deficit disorder of some sort. Mine is making lists. I have little books, notepads, sketchbooks, pieces of paper, pieces of box cartons, business cards, postcards and receipts with telephone numbers, recipes, books titles, music artists, song titles, drawings, ideas, diagrams, measurements, film script stories, name lists, emails, websites, grant leads, wish lists, shopping lists, to-do lists, written descriptions of various things, street intersections of places that I want to stop and check out someday, color arrangements, DIY project notes, restaurants addresses,  friends’ birth dates, words and philosophies I want to look up, math summations and formulas, Spanish words I don’t know, paint chips, quotes I like, driving directions and printed clippings.

I keep these little books (some decorated) where they are easy to find and write in: 2 in my car console, 1 on my dining/work station, 2 in my desk drawer, 1 to 2 in my purse  and the completely filled up ones in a box on a book shelf.

Funny thing is that I don’t look at them that much.  I am compelled, in an addiction manner to buy more little books whenever, wherever I see them.  I’ve processed this way my whole life, making some of these little books pretty old.  Its as if once I put something down on paper, it’s inscribed in my mind.

I take pride in being very organized in most of my daily tasks and spaces–very logical on how I began every project–but the little books have no rhyme or reason.  Each page has no relation to the next, each entry is in no particular order and the only way to find anything, would be to open each one and flip-read through each page. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I think I will have time to read these again.

I get miffed with myself when I see artists’ sketch books that are dedicated to just art drawings and thumbnail images of a greater art piece to come.   I suppose in a way, my little books are the sketch books of my art and mind.  Perhaps, these notations from all these little daily thoughts, electromagnetic ideas and sequences of matters that pass in front of my eyes represent my art. Maybe this is my religion.

Asi Es El Mundo . . . .

Eye Speak Tapestry Piece at LAX

Eye Speak Tapestry Piece at LAX

A few weeks after September 11. 2001, I took part in a Los Angeles project called Eye-Speak curated by Joseph Beckles & Jane Castillo.  I was given a 3 X 5 foot area to paint within a 2 week period.  There were 2 tapestries that were 150 feet each, with 115 artists painting side by side.

Bewildered by the events of those days, many of us created artwork that related to the feelings of loss, confusion and impeding war. The painting I did was of a woman, like myself feeling very vulnerable, yet holding her heart together during a crisis.

On January 23, 2004 the tapestry was unveiled in a plexiglass display case lining a ramp for arriving passengers out of the Tom Bradley International Terminal. The second 150-foot scroll was displayed near the terminal’s baggage claim area.  Passengers and some city employees who were offended by the images in my piece demanded that the city remove both scrolls.  The airport officials turned the lights off in the display case to keep it from being seen.

Under pressure from airport officials, the Eye-Speak curators agreed to take down the work.  After receiving inquiries from The Los Angeles Times, airport officials reversed their order to remove the tapestry and decided it could remain through its originally scheduled dates. Officials turned on the lights in the display case again!

Museum Frictions: Public Cultures/Global Transformations (published in 2006) a collection of essays addressing the relationship between museums and globalization, note that the attempted censorship of my painting at LAX was part of the George W. Bush political climate in 2004 which affected many exhibitions and artists.  Today LAX has two screening barriers artists must pass to be exhibited in their community spaces.